When You Hit Rock Bottom, You Can Only Go Up

Sometimes we struggle to say what we wish to say and sometimes we say too much.
Sometimes we mean to say one thing and say the other and sometimes we make a situation worse even when attempting to make it better.
There are days we grab life by the horns and conquer the universe and then there are days we want to hide away and never come out.
We have moments of joy when nothing else matters then have days of sorrow when we wish we could disappear.
Sometimes we love and other times we hate.
Sometimes we smile and sometimes we cry.
Sometimes we remember and sometimes we wish we could forget.
Sometimes we forget and wish we could remember.

There was a time I did not know where I was going with my life..a time when I lost my friends, a lot of my family, and most of all, myself. I did now know what I was doing and I had no idea that my actions would come around to bite me in the butt more than anyone else. Little did I know, or even care, really, how much I affected the people around me. When you have so many people banking on you to become successful and be a good example, there’s a lot of pressure on you. I was the guy that every aunty loved, every kid wanted to hang out with, and every uncle expected a lot from. I was the “prodigal” son who was never supposed to falter and was expected to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I failed. Miserably.

I hit rock bottom. I had nowhere else to go. And that is when I realized what I had to do. I had no idea how to do it or if I would succeed. But I knew that I HAD to do it.

It’s been a few years now since I had that realization but I have come a long way. That is not to say that I did not have missteps or drawbacks. I had TONS of them! There were times I wanted to give up and there were times that I almost did. I had moments of utter and complete hatred toward myself and everything around me. I couldn’t look myself in the mirror because I was so ashamed and angry. But I would wake up in the morning and tell myself and convince myself that it is a new day and a new day means a new beginning.

I still remind myself everyday that I can do and insha’Allah I WILL do it. Everyone has moments of weakness. That does NOT make us weak though. Even Superman has a weakness –> Kryptonite. Everyone has fears. That does NOT make us afraid of the world, though. Bruce Wayne feared bats; he became the Batman. Perfection is in the eye of the beholder. We are all perfect, with all our flaws and mistakes.

We must remind ourselves that we are what we have in this world. Other than that, we have our beliefs.

We have each other. We must not forget to ask for a helping hand and we must not forget to HELP those in need. We may be in denial and we may act like nothing is wrong but everyone breaks down at some point or another. We need to be there for those who break down to help pick them back up again. It is ALWAYS easier to gain our footing again when someone gives us a hand to pick us back up when we fall.

I pray that each and everyone of us in this community can open our eyes, accept each other for who we are, and help each other to be the best we can be. 🙂